Prom...again

So the week of prom is finally here after counting down the days for weeks and getting ready and finding that perfect dress…which I have to say I found with like 3 weeks till prom and was freaking out because I thought that there was going to be nothing left for me to find. But when I went to the original store that I started my search on I found the perfect dress…even though it’s a dress that I would have never seen myself in, but I love it anyway. I am going in a group with one of my best friends and it’s just going to be a small group because we don’t want to deal with all the drama on a night that we are supposed to want to have fun and remember those fun times, and we don’t want to have to forget all the drama that could have happened, because I think that if a group of people are just thrown together that at some point there is going to be drama inside that group, and that’s just something that anyone doesn’t want to happen especially on a night that is as big as this one. I am really excited for this weekend with all the things that I am going to be doing that day. With hair and nails, oh and having softball practice that morning for like an hour and half and hopefully having enough time to get nails and stuff done before my friend and I go to my moms friends house to get our hair done. Which I am totally freaking over because I have absolutely no idea on what my hair is going to look like or what I want to do to it. I don’t know if I want it up or down. I know for a fact that I am not going to have it curled because my just isn’t the type of hair that stays curly for long, and I don’t want to have to spray hairspray on it every 5 minutes because that will get old pretty fast. But I guess this all comes with the experience of prom and what it has to offer. It’s not like any other dance though it’s the last dance of high school for seniors and it’s a really formal thing, and of course I want everything to go perfectly so I can look back and say that I really enjoyed that weekend and that finally formal dance as a high school student.

Moving Forward

So has senior has been coming closer and closer to an end finally, I have realized that school right now at this moment just isn’t really going good at the moment. I not saying that I’m failing any classes because I’m not…just the concentration level that I have right now just is really the best. I think at this point in the year that my level of actually getting things done ahead of time or keeping on top of assignments is just not the best. I’m getting them done, but at the slowest rate ever, or I’m getting them done the night before and starting them at like 9 and getting them done at like 10:30, which I have never really done before, but until now I think that’s the only way that I could get something done is doing it the night before it’s actually do, which I’m not going to lie I’ve done multiple times before and have been doing it all throughout my high school career. I mean what student in high school doesn’t procrastinate at some point in high school. I guess there could be people that like to have things done way before they are actually due…but right now I don’t really have that kind of motivation for doing things right now. And I think it’s the combination of having things to do after school with sports and getting ready for prom this weekend, which I have to say that I’m still not ready for and it’s in like 2 days, which I am totally pumped for. Also it’s the combination of having softball practice after school till like 6 and then just not feeling the best either. Then getting distracted by something else…and just things like that make me the biggest procrastinator ever especially right now. But I am really excited to be finally done with high school. With the 8 or less days that are left I think I’m going to kind of miss what was going on in high school. I think I’m especially going to miss the Friday night football games, and going to state for different sports. But I guess eventually everyone has to graduate and move onto another chapter in life, and I really excited to start that new chapter of college. With the moving into a new place and being independent, which I think for me is going to be kind of hard, I mean I can do things on my own that’s not the problem I think it’s the more responsibility aspect of it. Like paying for different things like I’m going to have to pay for my cell phone, and groceries and things like that, that I have depended on my mom to get for me and I think eventually it will get easier but I think at the beginning it will definitely be a challenge but I think I ready to move onto the big world of college, and being on my own.

Softball begins...

So yesterday was Monday obviously, which I have to say is the worst day of the week for the fact that it’s the beginning to a new school week and the next weekend is that much farther away. Also yesterday was the first practice for softball. Which I have to say was kind of hard because of the fact that haven’t really done that much stuff with softball drills for a while and I think it might take me awhile to get back into the groove of the drills but I don’t really think that it will take me that long to finally get where I need to be. But this I hope it’s going to be a good year and it’s a fresh start. Everyone starts with a 0-0 record and everyone is on the same level record wise. Teams might be rated but that doesn’t really mean that they can’t be beat. Believe me I have had plenty of occasion where I have pitched and won a against a team that has gone to state multiple years in a row, and have won against a team that has a pitcher that might be one of the top in the state, and have been able to win the game with them not scoring any runs. I think that those kinds of wins really boost confidence. It somewhat shows you that even though they might have a really good pitcher or a really good team in general that the can’t be beat but they can, and that’s they best feeling in the world when it’s you that are the ones to beat them, especially when you have kind of had a little bit of a rough outing with games, it’s a real confidence booster. Especially for the whole team and not just one player. I mean when a whole team goes into a game that they think won’t even happen for them, and then they come out with a win it makes the whole morale of the team go way up. That happened to us last year multiple times. Once when we played Solon, which is a softball team that has a monster power of its own. They have been to state multiple years in a row, they have intense pitching and there batting is ridiculously good. But even though we kind of thought that we were going to go into this game and that we were probably going to get beat, but yet we still had somewhat of a chance, and the come out with a win of beating them by 3 it’s was a good day because that tournament we when 4-0 and made it to the championship game again same as the year before and played the exact same team that we did that year in the championship game and this year we were the ones that came up with the win. And for me as a pitcher of that game, at the beginning in came into the game going thinking oh jeeze this game is going to be tough…because while warming up for the game I wasn’t really that confident in my pitching at the time and was scared that it was just going to go down the drain and they were going to score like 10 runs in the first inning or something like that, but I realized after awhile that even though my warm up pitches were not the best that my pitches were actually working when I thought that they were never going to work. I think that was the most exciting and intense game I have to say of the entire season. I think those are the kinds of games that I learn from. Like realizing that even though a team can be that could they still can be beat. I also think that those are the kinds of a game I grow stronger as a pitcher and that’s what I like about the game of softball, things that are totally unexpected can happen especially when they are for the better. This year is a new year and I’m excited about what it has to bring.

Graduation...again

So I don’t really know what to blog about this week. Last week I had actually had in mind what topics I wanted to write about, and I have to admit they were kind of boring topics. I think I was just trying to fill in the blog requirement which I am behind on. But maybe I’ll write about graduation again because at this moment it’s the best topic to write about because it’s so close. There are give or take 18 days till the big graduation ceremony, which to be completely honest there is a part of me that isn’t that excited for the fact that we have to sit in seats for like 3 hours and listen to speeches and bands playing the choir sing and what not and that’s the only part that I’m not looking forward to for the fact that I’m not the kind of person that can listen to people talk for long periods of time, which for me is a bad deal because I’m going to be dealing with that next year in college, I guess I’ll have to find some way that I can stand it. But anyway, that’s the only part of graduation that I’m not looking forward to. But I am excited that it’s finally coming closer to that big day, which begins a new chapter in my life which is college. And I’m not gonna lie and I am pretty nervous to finally be moving out of the house. Because I am an only child and I think that it will be the hardest on my mom considering I am an only child. I am going to be moving out of the house and doing things on my own from that point on. With things like cleaning and shopping for myself which I don’t really think I’ll have a problem with because I do a lot of those things right know anyway, but then there comes to things like paying bills and things like that. I just don’t really think that my mom is ready to except that I’m growing up, and I have come to that point where I’m leaving the house. I think she thought that it would taking longer than she thought it would, I don’t think that she expected it to come up this fast. But I think I’m ok with finally moving out and heading to college, I have really been looking forward to this since the beginning of senior year of finally moving out and heading off to college which everyone eventually does. But I really hope that these finally weeks go pretty quick which I think that they will because there are a lot of things in between now and the day of graduation.