Prom...again

So the week of prom is finally here after counting down the days for weeks and getting ready and finding that perfect dress…which I have to say I found with like 3 weeks till prom and was freaking out because I thought that there was going to be nothing left for me to find. But when I went to the original store that I started my search on I found the perfect dress…even though it’s a dress that I would have never seen myself in, but I love it anyway. I am going in a group with one of my best friends and it’s just going to be a small group because we don’t want to deal with all the drama on a night that we are supposed to want to have fun and remember those fun times, and we don’t want to have to forget all the drama that could have happened, because I think that if a group of people are just thrown together that at some point there is going to be drama inside that group, and that’s just something that anyone doesn’t want to happen especially on a night that is as big as this one. I am really excited for this weekend with all the things that I am going to be doing that day. With hair and nails, oh and having softball practice that morning for like an hour and half and hopefully having enough time to get nails and stuff done before my friend and I go to my moms friends house to get our hair done. Which I am totally freaking over because I have absolutely no idea on what my hair is going to look like or what I want to do to it. I don’t know if I want it up or down. I know for a fact that I am not going to have it curled because my just isn’t the type of hair that stays curly for long, and I don’t want to have to spray hairspray on it every 5 minutes because that will get old pretty fast. But I guess this all comes with the experience of prom and what it has to offer. It’s not like any other dance though it’s the last dance of high school for seniors and it’s a really formal thing, and of course I want everything to go perfectly so I can look back and say that I really enjoyed that weekend and that finally formal dance as a high school student.

Moving Forward

So has senior has been coming closer and closer to an end finally, I have realized that school right now at this moment just isn’t really going good at the moment. I not saying that I’m failing any classes because I’m not…just the concentration level that I have right now just is really the best. I think at this point in the year that my level of actually getting things done ahead of time or keeping on top of assignments is just not the best. I’m getting them done, but at the slowest rate ever, or I’m getting them done the night before and starting them at like 9 and getting them done at like 10:30, which I have never really done before, but until now I think that’s the only way that I could get something done is doing it the night before it’s actually do, which I’m not going to lie I’ve done multiple times before and have been doing it all throughout my high school career. I mean what student in high school doesn’t procrastinate at some point in high school. I guess there could be people that like to have things done way before they are actually due…but right now I don’t really have that kind of motivation for doing things right now. And I think it’s the combination of having things to do after school with sports and getting ready for prom this weekend, which I have to say that I’m still not ready for and it’s in like 2 days, which I am totally pumped for. Also it’s the combination of having softball practice after school till like 6 and then just not feeling the best either. Then getting distracted by something else…and just things like that make me the biggest procrastinator ever especially right now. But I am really excited to be finally done with high school. With the 8 or less days that are left I think I’m going to kind of miss what was going on in high school. I think I’m especially going to miss the Friday night football games, and going to state for different sports. But I guess eventually everyone has to graduate and move onto another chapter in life, and I really excited to start that new chapter of college. With the moving into a new place and being independent, which I think for me is going to be kind of hard, I mean I can do things on my own that’s not the problem I think it’s the more responsibility aspect of it. Like paying for different things like I’m going to have to pay for my cell phone, and groceries and things like that, that I have depended on my mom to get for me and I think eventually it will get easier but I think at the beginning it will definitely be a challenge but I think I ready to move onto the big world of college, and being on my own.

Softball begins...

So yesterday was Monday obviously, which I have to say is the worst day of the week for the fact that it’s the beginning to a new school week and the next weekend is that much farther away. Also yesterday was the first practice for softball. Which I have to say was kind of hard because of the fact that haven’t really done that much stuff with softball drills for a while and I think it might take me awhile to get back into the groove of the drills but I don’t really think that it will take me that long to finally get where I need to be. But this I hope it’s going to be a good year and it’s a fresh start. Everyone starts with a 0-0 record and everyone is on the same level record wise. Teams might be rated but that doesn’t really mean that they can’t be beat. Believe me I have had plenty of occasion where I have pitched and won a against a team that has gone to state multiple years in a row, and have won against a team that has a pitcher that might be one of the top in the state, and have been able to win the game with them not scoring any runs. I think that those kinds of wins really boost confidence. It somewhat shows you that even though they might have a really good pitcher or a really good team in general that the can’t be beat but they can, and that’s they best feeling in the world when it’s you that are the ones to beat them, especially when you have kind of had a little bit of a rough outing with games, it’s a real confidence booster. Especially for the whole team and not just one player. I mean when a whole team goes into a game that they think won’t even happen for them, and then they come out with a win it makes the whole morale of the team go way up. That happened to us last year multiple times. Once when we played Solon, which is a softball team that has a monster power of its own. They have been to state multiple years in a row, they have intense pitching and there batting is ridiculously good. But even though we kind of thought that we were going to go into this game and that we were probably going to get beat, but yet we still had somewhat of a chance, and the come out with a win of beating them by 3 it’s was a good day because that tournament we when 4-0 and made it to the championship game again same as the year before and played the exact same team that we did that year in the championship game and this year we were the ones that came up with the win. And for me as a pitcher of that game, at the beginning in came into the game going thinking oh jeeze this game is going to be tough…because while warming up for the game I wasn’t really that confident in my pitching at the time and was scared that it was just going to go down the drain and they were going to score like 10 runs in the first inning or something like that, but I realized after awhile that even though my warm up pitches were not the best that my pitches were actually working when I thought that they were never going to work. I think that was the most exciting and intense game I have to say of the entire season. I think those are the kinds of games that I learn from. Like realizing that even though a team can be that could they still can be beat. I also think that those are the kinds of a game I grow stronger as a pitcher and that’s what I like about the game of softball, things that are totally unexpected can happen especially when they are for the better. This year is a new year and I’m excited about what it has to bring.

Graduation...again

So I don’t really know what to blog about this week. Last week I had actually had in mind what topics I wanted to write about, and I have to admit they were kind of boring topics. I think I was just trying to fill in the blog requirement which I am behind on. But maybe I’ll write about graduation again because at this moment it’s the best topic to write about because it’s so close. There are give or take 18 days till the big graduation ceremony, which to be completely honest there is a part of me that isn’t that excited for the fact that we have to sit in seats for like 3 hours and listen to speeches and bands playing the choir sing and what not and that’s the only part that I’m not looking forward to for the fact that I’m not the kind of person that can listen to people talk for long periods of time, which for me is a bad deal because I’m going to be dealing with that next year in college, I guess I’ll have to find some way that I can stand it. But anyway, that’s the only part of graduation that I’m not looking forward to. But I am excited that it’s finally coming closer to that big day, which begins a new chapter in my life which is college. And I’m not gonna lie and I am pretty nervous to finally be moving out of the house. Because I am an only child and I think that it will be the hardest on my mom considering I am an only child. I am going to be moving out of the house and doing things on my own from that point on. With things like cleaning and shopping for myself which I don’t really think I’ll have a problem with because I do a lot of those things right know anyway, but then there comes to things like paying bills and things like that. I just don’t really think that my mom is ready to except that I’m growing up, and I have come to that point where I’m leaving the house. I think she thought that it would taking longer than she thought it would, I don’t think that she expected it to come up this fast. But I think I’m ok with finally moving out and heading to college, I have really been looking forward to this since the beginning of senior year of finally moving out and heading off to college which everyone eventually does. But I really hope that these finally weeks go pretty quick which I think that they will because there are a lot of things in between now and the day of graduation.

Softball...it's almost here

So as the school year finally comes to a close (thank goodness)…Well for seniors at least it ends early…This event of school coming closer to an end also marks something that’s exciting to me at least, and that’s the beginning of softball practice. Waiting for that day is getting closer and closer, and I couldn’t be more excited for it. I have been playing softball basically since I was like 5 or 6 starting with T-Ball of course and then working my way up to coach pitch, and then I began to do an ASA league through Kennedy and that’s how I got started pitching. I think I have been pitching for like 6 or 7 years; I started off slow and not know what to do, and just doing it for fun. Then one tournament in Solon, the coach put me in pitching, I was pretty scared but at the same time excited, and think I got all three outs by myself. And then as ASA ball went on I got more serious and serious about pitching, practicing whenever I could and going out the field and practicing. Then when I finally got to high school, the summer of my 8th grade year I finally was on the high school level for softball and I was excited, I did pretty well I think. But then my freshman year I was on Varsity and I going to admit that I was terrified because of course we compete with all the teams that have gone to state multiple times and it was kind of intimidating, and that year was also the year that we had gotten a new coach, that actually came from one of the schools that we compete against, and it got kind of annoying when he was our coach because of the fact that he always everyday of practice had to say something that referred to the school across the river…meaning Jefferson, and its like we thought well if you like so much then why don’t you got back…everyone one the team after the second year that he was there thought that we didn’t like him at all. And of course as soon as he resigned we were all excited that he wasn’t coming back…and where did he go….back to Jefferson…which wasn’t surprising at all because he talked about them so much that we thought that he missed it and wanted to go back, and wanted to change our program into a mini version of what Jefferson was and we got tired of it after awhile…anyway off topic. Pitching became my life in the off season…At the end of my freshman year of softball I had begun to start working with a pitching coach in the off season…meaning all winter once a week I would go to sports zone and throw for like an hour…and that’s were I got better and was able to also gain so pitches and got more speed and worked on my mechanics to become a better thrower, and I think that I was lucky that I was able to get a pitching coach to help me get better because I honestly don’t know where I would be as a pitcher if I didn’t have a coach to help me with what I was doing wrong and helping me fix it, and also I would have the pitches that I do right now and I m excited for that because the pitches I have now I think have made me a pretty successful pitcher.

Prom....

So the day till prom seems to be getting closer and closer as I know it. And it’s pretty exciting and at the same time some what of a sad moment because prom is the ending dance to all the high school dances and it’s one of the biggest…for seniors at least for the fact that it is the last dance of our high school careers. So last weekend my mom and I finally had the time to get to go shopping for prom dresses, and I know im thinking what the heck am I doing shopping for a prom dress with probably a little less than a month till prom and I don’t have a dress…I was freaking out being like what if there aren’t any dresses left and what if they don’t have what I want and what I thought that I was going to get. So my mom and I, last Saturday went on a prom dress road trip. Our road trip and search started in the town of Boone. And why Boone, well there was a store or shop or whatever you want to call it there that carried the brand of dresses that I wanted to get. But just my luck the store was crappy compared what the website that I looked at, it seemed to be better, or I thought that I would find the dress that I would wear to prom there, but I was so wrong. We got there and the people that were working there just looked at us like what the heck are you doing here and why are you here, it was the most awkward moment of my like I thought. So I tried on some dresses but just has my luck would have it nothing. Then as we were leaving, it was that same awkward moment of the what the heck are you doing here. So after that disaster my mom thought that since we were so close to Des Moines, where I originally started my search for my prom dress and found nothing, we went back to that same store. I searched through the same dresses that I had gone through the week of spring break. As I was looking I found the same dress that I had tried on that same week and was excited because I really wanted that dress. But as I found that dress and found others that I could try on, one of the people that were working gave me a dress that I thought was the ugliest thing that I had ever seen in my life. It was a dress that I thought I would never ever in my life get…I tried it on and thank goodness I didn’t like it. But then she gives me another dress and of course I think it’s the ugliest dress ever, but then when I tried it on and look at through a mirror I thought oh my god I think I have found my dress….the person that was helping me forced me to try on this dress that I thought are you serious this thing is ugly, something that I would never try on or even were for that matter. But when I tried it on and looked at through a mirror I loved it. And after my mom had paid for I thought oh my god I just got a dress that I thought I would have never had gotten if this lady didn’t tell me to try it on. It was a poofy dress and it was also pink, two things that I thought I would never put together. A poofy dress which thought I would never get because I didn’t at all no exceptions would get a poofy dress because of the fact I didn’t want to look like Barbie. And the fact that it was pink was fine with me because the original dress that I tried on was pink and that was fine with me….but the fact that I had just gotten a poofy dress…I was in shock because that was one of the things that I didn’t want, but with the dress that I got it changed my mind.

Graduation...again

So since the day till graduation is starting to become closer and closer and many of us seniors are starting to or have already began to plan out graduation party plans. Except for me. I know I’m think to myself that I really need to get on the ball with this whole graduation party thing, because graduation before I know it is going to be here an I’m going to have a party that family members and friends can come to and see what I have accomplished over my high school career and earlier. I’m thinking holy crap I really need to get going with the plans for my graduation party, since there is so much to plan with the whole graduation party thing. To me kind of I think I graduation party is something that you have to have. It shows that you have finally made it passed the next big step of your life and that you are now going to be making an even bigger step, with moving on to college. But I mean it’s kind of a stressful thing to plan. You have to have the right place to hold the event and have the right food and invite all the people and make all the invitations and send those out.
The hardest part I think for me is going to be figuring out when I’m going to have it. I don’t know if I should have it the weekend of graduation, (which I’m thinking is a good idea) but the thing with that is, that everyone that I know for the most part is going to have their party on that Saturday or Sunday, and it’s like if I also another person that has their’s that day than how many people are actually going to come to mine with they have other people’s to go to. I mean people don’t really have to stay for that long, but its like there are so many that weekend and they are all at the same time and its going to be hard to figure out which ones you can make, and which ones that you might not make it to. I mean not everyone that I am going to invite has to come to mine, I totally would understand if they cant make it, but it is really crazy to see how many people are having it that weekend. I thought about having it the weekend after but that option is thrown out already, because my dad is having my graduation party for me because my parents are separated and I think that two parties would be to much to handle, and I bet people would think why wouldn’t you have two parties you get more money and presents and stuff like that with two parties, but then I would have to plan a second party and that would be such a hassle to both me and both my parents. So I decide to have just one. Then the other option for a party date would be two weeks after graduation when all the parties and things have settled down, but it’s like I cant wait that long, it’s to long to wait to have a party at that time. So I guess I am going to have to go with the weekend of graduation which is going to be crazy but I guess I’ll have to deal with it. I’m just excited to graduation and finally be done with high school, and get on with another chapter of my life.